SCH! or SubChorionic Hemorrhage!! WARNING TMI!!!

 So I want to share my story with my experience with the SCH. It all started Tuesday April 8th after my nap, I woke up with cramps like strong cramps that felt like they were in the middle of my uterus they weren't painful just noticeable. Then I went to the restroom and that's when I noticed I was spotting little streaks of pink blood. I called my friend and explained the situation as I knew this wasn't normal in my two previous pregnancies I've never experienced anything like this.
 So the decision was made after my oldest son got off the bus we drove to my mothers house to drop the kids off with her and then we went to the ER.

   Once in the ER after blood work, pelvic exam and sonogram it detected that I was 6 wks 1 day and had a small subchorionic hemorrhage. I had no idea what that was I mean the baby had a heart beat and everything. The doctor mentioned that if I were to miscarry there was nothing he can do which was hard to hear. My instructions were to take it easy and pelvic rest. Once home from the ER I thought everything would be okay, but I was wrong the next morning I woke up with my undies soaked in blood it was horrible and the cramping reminded more of contractions but less intense. I phoned my OB office and her nurse insisited I didn't need to be seen any earlier than what I was already scheduled for even after I explained the passing of clots it was horrible I was so mad!! It was later on the next day that I had a urge to poo really bad. I went to the bathroom and poo I did not a little sack fell out in the toilet! now I've never suffered a miscarriage so I had NO idea what to expect.
 
 
    Something about drew my attention to the sack I held it in my hand and I thought I was seeing what would have been a place for eyes. I immediately showed my hubby who was as clueless as I was so I held onto it for a few hours in a zip lock baggie, remembering what the doc said that chances are I will carry to term I flushed the blob down the toilet which I now know was the baby :(
 So finally I had my first prenatal visit and asked the doc for a ultrasound and had one set up later that afternoon. Which is when we discovered I had a complete natural miscarriage.

  The ride home sucked I was in shock and numb all at the same time, we had lunch went home and I had turned in early that night from emotional fatigue and I had a morning follow up appointment with my OB. The next day was like walking through mud I felt so sad I flushed the baby down the toilet I was so mad at myself!! The OB basically said that sometimes these things happen and its nothing anyone did or didn't do to cause what happened. Also I told her about her nurse she was truly upset about the nurse. We went about our day and later that night after our older kids were sleeping I had a massive emotional break down I never thought something so tiny would effect me so much!! I was sad a sad sad person I bought a pack of smokes the day I found out we lost the baby and went outside and had a couple of smokes( yes I smoke occasionally) and went to bed.

   To this day I constantly wonder how our lives would've been changed had our baby not left this world so soon.....